Writers are often asked, “Where do you get your ideas?” The question will elicit a different answer from every writer. But I’m guessing the subtext to the myriad replies would be something like, “I get my ideas from my fascinations.”

We all have fascinations; they’re definitely not restricted to writers—we just tend to blab about them in a public forum, our books. Fascinations are diverse, kooky things; some dark as the catacombs, some bright as tulips. They can be passions, curiosities, a shade of kink, green eyes, space travel, ghosts, or a pair of red shoes. Or they can be issues: health, politics, murder, love affairs, the crazy cult of celebrity. There are no end to things that pull our minds, and draw our inner eye to the realm of fascinations. And when a writer’s fascination matches up with a reader’s? Voila! A connection. :-)

One of my fascinations is old buildings; abandoned places, once built with purpose and enthusiasm and meant to last. But buildings seldom do last, at least in the form in which they’re originally created. They age, molder away, rust, breakdown, and eventually become hazardous to humans. They go from their purpose-filled beginning to a condemned notice pasted on a padlocked door. In the end we discard them and they discard us.

I’m particularly fascinated with old hotels. The Old Boys, I call them.

In whatever city you visit, you’ll find these once proud but now tatty old gents. Look up at the third floor window and you might see a dimly lit room, a single light bulb hanging from a tangled cord behind grimy windows. Maybe that cold white light illuminates a bottle of whiskey and an ash tray on a scarred table. Or a single cup of cold coffee  held in gnarled hands. Maybe a journal with writing only on a tear-stained page one. Maybe. Maybe. Maybe…

Often these hotels are in a seedy, seen-better-days part of town where many of the people in and around them appear to have moldered in sync with the hotel’s decline.

Oh, but what stories these Old Boys could tell–if their walls could talk. What mysteries they’d solve. And what hearts their secrets would break.

IN ROOM 33, now on Amazon, I created my own Old Boy hotel, The Hotel Philip, and it comes with some peculiar tenants, murder, romance, and some very creepy secrets of its own.

You may not want to check in to The Hotel Philip, but you may want to check it out. You’ll find it here: http://amzn.to/IHzRQp

In a few weeks, my son will graduate from high school. That watershed event, coupled with a number of other passages that I’ve marked in my personal life over the last few months, has me thinking about the inevitability of endings.

In the case of Teen Freud, his graduation will be a poignant mix of sadness and joy. As his twelve years of education comes to a close and he says good-bye to the familiar, he’ll be embarking on a new beginning at university just a few months from now. His ending (possibly even a well-dressed one if I can convince him to ditch the low riders and wear a suit) offers both closure and promise.

It’s a lot like the ending in a good book. The best endings have a sense of irrevocability to them. They wrap up the story, at least as much as the writer wants it wrapped up. In the case of a romance, there’s a happily-ever-after. In a whodunit, the bad guy is caught. A YA, depending on the tone, usually ends with a significant growth in understanding and often, though not always, with hope or a promise. But whether it’s happy, sad or somewhere in the middle, a good ending provides another grace note. It leaves us feeling as though that story and those characters live on long after the last page.

A lot has been written about first lines and book openings but endings don’t seem to elicit the same attention. We don’t talk much about them. I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because beginnings are joyful, hopeful places while endings, no matter how you slice them, have a certain finality that tugs at our heartstrings. But brilliant endings are memorable, and worth striving for. Consider these:

“And then, right in the middle of Pennsylvania Avenue, with the whole world looking on, he planted a long, lingering kiss on the lips of the President of the United States.” First Lady, Susan Elizabeth Phillips

“Tomorrow I’ll think of some way to get him back. After all, tomorrow is another day.” Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell

“I take his hand, holding tightly, preparing for the cameras, and dreading the moment when I will finally have to let go.” The Hunger Games, Suzanne Collins.

“But wherever they go, and whatever happens to them on the way, in that enchanted place on the top of the Forest a little boy and his Bear will always be playing.” The House at Pooh Corner, A.A. Milne.

A good ending, like a hard-earned graduation, is a well-deserved wrap. It is both an ending and a beginning. If you have a favorite last line – one you wrote or one from another author – I’d love to read it.

We’ve been chatting this week with Bonnie Edwards, a model from Australia and coincidentally another Bonnie who sings the blues with her band, The Practical Cats in Maine. I’m quite fascinated with the successes of these women and knowing how very difficult it is to carve a niche in publishing, I admire each of them for finding their own success.

From Bonnie our blues singer:    

What would you be doing if you weren’t singing? 

I moved back home to Maine to take care of my mom who had failing health.  I had a creative block as far as singing goes when I moved back home.  I had this knowing of some sort to buy a pad and pastels and so I did.

I sat there with my mom  and wondered what I was supposed to do.  I love drawing but that was one on of my dad’s many talents,  not mine.  I remember feeling this cold front start at the top of my forehead and run down my arms telling me to just choose one of the colors and started creating.

Well the pictures came out as abstracts and very colorful.  My mom really loved the pictures and encouraged me.  After creating 10 paintings, a friend of mine stopped by and I didn’t have time to put them away.  To that point my mom had been the only one to see.  My friend asked me who did those and I was hesitant to answer.  But I did and she responded with a statement that made me nervous.  She wanted to show them to some friends of ours.  I reluctantly said yes.

Our friends  just sat there looking at all of them and all saw different things and felt different things from each piece.  I had even forgotten that the art pieces were created through me.  What I found out is that,because of my creative singing block, I was expressing my emotions through color and form instead of singing and performing.

This process helped me to work through my musical creative block.  I did 45 pieces in that first year of being home and taking care of my mom.  Towards the end of that process of doing my spiritual abstract pastels, I was able to sing again with a renewed sense of excitement and depth of emotion.

I put my band back together, Bonnie Edwards and The Practical Cats, and started performing again.  We are still going strong, performing at festivals, a few clubs and lots of private functions.

I needed to include your story about the spirit paintings, because it proves that creative people have more than one talent. When forced to, we can find another expression of creativity. Recently I was asked what it would be like for me if I retired from writing. 

I know people who have retired or stopped writing and I often wonder how it is for them. Often, they do find another way to express themselves. Or they go to work at a day job that’s so tiring they’re worn out at the end of the day so there’s nothing left to write with.

I can’t imagine no longer writing fiction. There are huge areas of my mind filled with characters, plots and ideas and what would fill those places if I wasn’t writing? Scary thought. Let’s hope I never have to find out!

How do you handle social media for your public profile? Is it a necessary burden or just fun? 

Handling my public profile is a necessary burden as I really am not computer savvy, so I really don’t like it much.  My website is finally under construction which has been something that needs attention.  It should be up and running soon and I was told that this particular site will be easy for me to maintain, which makes me happy.

When you have the site up, please send it and I’ll put a link to it from my site so people looking for you can find you if they stumble on me and my site. When we visit Maine next year, I’d love to come hear you sing live and your website will have your schedule. I’m looking forward to it. 

Thanks so much for sharing your life and career with us, Bonnie. It’s been a real pleasure to share this time with you.

And some final words from our lovely Australian model, Bonnie Edwards:

How do you view social media? Is it a requirement to maintain a public profile in modelling or is it more for fun?

I think social media plays a huge part in success and exposure within the modelling industry. It allows you to share your work with fans, friends, family no matter where the publication or what the magazine. Sometimes I wonder how we could keep everyone updated before it! It allows my fans to be able to see my international publications, share my photos, keep up to date on shoots, appearances and gives a bit more of a personal spin on things.

 

How can fans follow your career? 

If you would like to keep up to date on my adventures you can follow me on twitter @bonniedwards (one e) haha author Bonnie and I have a nicely mixed group of fans:) I also have a fan page on Facebook which you can like and view my publications. https://www.facebook.com/pages/Bonnie-Edwards/143243475727341

Thank you so much Bonnie. I’ve enjoyed taking part in this interview and sharing a part of my world with you and your readers yay! X

I think I’m halfway between you both in regard to social media. It is both fun and the bane of my days sometimes. I love Twitter for its immediacy. Following you, Bonnie is always refreshing. I love it when your handsome young male fans follow me by mistake…it’s like a secret joke…horrors! I really need to get a couple of tweets in Spanish ready so I can send them off to you!  Facebook for me is another matter. 

I have a page too ,https://www.facebook.com/pages/Bonnie-Edwards-Author/121362014551331 and while I try to get there more often, it is not the first place I go when I have a few minutes. Those social media moments go to Twitter. Some of us are just Twitter gals and some of us aren’t. 

I hope that you both stop by the blog occasionally or check in with email. I would love to hear of exciting new developments in your careers. I’ll be happy to share them!

Thanks to you both for sharing your time and energy with me!

 

 

 

On Monday we began a short Q&A with Bonnie Edwards the blues singer and Bonnie Edwards an Australian swimsuit and glamour model. We continue today with some more lighthearted questions and the news that both Bonnies are happy to offer give aways. (A cd of Bonnie Edwards and the Practical Cats or a signed photo from our lovely model or a book of mine) We will pick from people who’ve commented or asked questions.

Today we begin with our lovely model:

What’s the secret to maintaining your career? Do you work out all the time? Diet?  Special skin care regime? All of the above?

There is no big secret to maintaining my career other than looking after myself inside and out. :) I enjoy staying active and keeping myself busy with classes like Pilates and I do try to keep a healthy diet even though I do give in to chocolate- a LOT! I think confidence and feeling sexy plays a big part in how you look on camera.  There is a lot of maintenance to keep up with  my beauty regime… Skin, nails, hair etc but like most girls I like to spoil myself with facials, manicures and all the rest. :) Beauty products and regimes to me are like cars to men- LOVE:)

As a writer, I maintain my writing skills by stretching my writing boundaries. I work on challenging books with multiple characters (readers probably wouldn’t know how hard it is to keep 3 heroes and 3 heroines straight in my head while working through a full-length novel. But the challenge keeps me sharp. Also, I teach online writing classes and they really keep me sharp because my students are always one step ahead of what I’ve taught!

Do you work with a career plan or objective clearly in mind? If so, what does your career look like to you in 5 years or 10? How global is your career?

Modelling is something I’ve purely maintained and enjoy as a hobby- unfortunately this work has a time limit. I’m sure no one would like to see me in a swimsuit in 20 years’ time . haha. I’ve been a qualified nurse and practice manager in the dental industry for 8 years so while I take every opportunity with my modelling I’ve maintained a life career. When I see myself settling down and having a family I will retire from modelling and fall back onto the life career.

In my 10 years of modelling I have achieved so much more than I could ever dream so I will be satisfied when that sad day comes. I’ve been lucky enough to hold contracts, write a column and hold several covers within Australia’s highest selling magazines and was very fortunate to break into the international market which has given me magazine covers on MAXIM, FHM CKM magazines in places such  Germany, Turkey, South Africa, Mexico, Norway as well as appearing in over 10 calendars and also TV commercials, website advertisements and small time music clips.

The other day we discussed poses, glamour vs fashion modelling and so on. Without you understanding your strengths and using them where they best fit, you wouldn’t have had the success you’ve had. I’d say most working models are not found on stools at a bar…they work for what they achieve. What’s that saying? You make your own luck, and it seems that’s exactly what you’ve done with dedication and a clear understanding of the business and where you fit. Brava!

(Okay, yes…here I go confessing: At 14 I was 5’10″ with waist-length honey gold hair. I asked a modelling student for information. When she said I’d have to lose 20 pounds, ( was already thin!) my interest vanished. It seemed too much like “work”. Writing essays for school? Piece of cake!) 

And more from Bonnie Edwards our blues singer:

What are some of the highlights of your career so far?

From the band bio: Bonnie’s band, The Practical Cats are an eclectic group of fine seasoned musicians that know how to lay down a groove.

Bonnie Edwards’ dedication to the art of performing and her love of singing are the driving forces of her career. With her gutsy blues vocal style and dynamic stage presence, she puts her heart and soul into her performance. She is what is known as a Blue Eyed Soul Singer.
The Practical Cats continue the tradition of providing their style of JumpBlues, Swing, Jazz, Vintage R&B and original music, for ”Maine’s Number One Lady of the Blues”, Bonnie Edwards.
Highlights include performing with Gatemouth Brown, Johnny Copeland, Jimmy Rogers, Eddie Kirkland, opening for Dr. John, and many more.
My European tours were so very exciting as well.  I love performing to thousands, as well as a few in a small setting.  It is all fun and brings joy to my heart, knowing that folks are enjoying themselves.
My kind of music. I love the blues, R & B, Swing…and Rock. Love me my rock’n'roll. I grew up with older siblings and listened to their Chuck Berry, Bo Diddley… Love MoTown…and the Phil Spectre Wall of Sound. Oh, wow…yeah…
I love that you put your heart and soul into singing. Getting inside the head and heart of a blues singer? Magic! Thanks so much for sharing this piece of your heart!
I also perform with The Girls of LA.  We are 6 local women who have gotten together to sing for the first time as a group.  We are a very diverse group and all have our avenue of music we prefer.  We perform at private functions in Maine.
The Girls of LA! This was confusing for me when I was looking for you! I thought there was an actress who performed out of LA in a troupe. It wasn’t until we connected that I learned you and the “actress” were one and the same. 

Where can people find and buy your music? Are downloads more popular than CDs now?

Our physical CD’s can be purchased on CD Baby or you can buy downloads from Itunes, amazon or any of the other sites that sell music.  Streaming is another form of receiving music.  I find that more people are downloading music, rather than buying physical CD’s.

I hope people stop by again on Friday when we round off our week!

I’ve gone to Amazon.com and found this link for purchase:     http://ow.ly/aDMyK

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A few years ago I stumbled across the singing group, “Bonnie Edwards and the Practical Cats” and thought, hey, that’s kinda cool. Then a year or so later, I joined Twitter (@BonnieEdwards) and eventually realized that another Bonnie Edwards had an interesting group of followers. Was she the singer? Or some new incarnation of the name? And why was I getting all these  young men following me quite suddenly. (and then disappearing just as fast? LOL)

A mystery for certain but even better: there could be a story here! And every writer loves to tell a good story. So, I followed @Bonniedwards on Twitter and found a fun, interesting young woman with a fascinating career who deserves all those young male followers. She’s a lovely, bright and articulate swimsuit model!

We tweeted occasionally and had some fun chatting about the young men who keep finding me (yes, I’m old enough to be their Mom). Once, in Spanish I was able to read a tweet about No, don’t follow the writer, follow the model! Or something very like that. I tweeted a  thank you note to him. (I’d taken some conversational Spanish recently so managed it.)

But, where was Bonnie Edwards the blues singer? I found her Facebook page. (Bonnie Edwards and The Practical Cats) but she never seemed to be on there. I sent a private message and waited.  Meantime, I went to lunch in NYC with my agent and editor and mentioned an idea I’d had to host the other Bonnies on this blog. They loved the idea!

Life does come through with good stuff sometimes and shortly after my trip to NYC, I got a response from Bonnie the singer through Facebook. And here, all week, we enjoy some conversation and Q&A about life, our careers and this place we call the internet, which makes life and career both large and small at the same time.

We would love to respond to questions as we go through the week, and on Friday, I’m pleased to offer an autographed copy of any one of my books to one lucky commenter. (Check them out at www.bonnieedwards.com)

Please do check back for more giveaways as the week moves along. On Wednesday I’ll add more Q & A and wind things up on Friday. It is my great pleasure to bring you the Bonnies!

Bonnie you’ve been singing for your entire career. When did you know you wanted to spend your life on stage?

At around 3 years old, I stood in a dance costume in my backyard, feeling really excited.   I asked  my dad to bring a phone outside for me as I was waiting for my agent to call.  He hung it on the side of the porch.

I turned around after speaking to my agent on the old crank phone and imagined thousands of people standing before me and cheering me on.  What an incredible feeling!  From that moment on I knew that I would be entertaining in some fashion.

On weekends my aunts and uncles would get together to sing and play music. I would sing and dance and felt connected to the rhythm and sounds of the instruments.  There is nothing like the natural high of performing.

How have things changed since you began singing? In terms of having a “public” profile?    

 There are so many changes since I have started my career.  The way that bands used to promote via snail mail or phone calls, now is via internet and websites.  I find that a lot of bands or performers don’t  have to be vocally good or musically good in order to make a name for themselves.  (I’m not saying it is good or bad, just a statement.)  The public has been primed and trained to receive information differently now and are directed without realizing it.  Which can sometimes eliminate diversity in life.  And let’s face it, life is about diversity as we are all different.  Life in all the arts should be all inclusive not exclusive.  Diversity is an avenue of learning, sharing and celebrating.

Me again: Diversity in all the arts. A wonderful concept. There’s room, definitely! I write romance fiction, but in there are short stories, novellas, full-length novels. Ghosts, private detectives, mechanics and reformed car thieves make up my heroes and heroines. I LOVE what I do and isn’t it a wonderful thing to have that? I’m so glad you found what makes you most happy.

How cool that the 3 year old you once were is living the life she dreamed of! Not all of us can say that. I also think that being creative opens us up to possibilities that others may not see.

And now to hear from our Australian model. Welcome, Bonnie and thanks so much for joining us!

How and why did you start modelling?

When I was younger I was very much in to fashion and aimed to model for bridal boutiques doing classic fashion glamour. However my height and curves made that goal very hard to achieve.  After gaining some amazing images and building a decent portfolio it wasn’t long before I realised the features that were not suitable for fashion were perfect for swimsuit and glamour. It wasn’t long before I had my first contract with Australia’s biggest selling men’s magazine. Even though I have managed to still dabble in some areas of fashion I would never have gained the international exposure, experience and amazing journey I’ve been lucky enough to have had doing glamour!

I love modelling and although the attention from men and then also critics is a lot higher in my industry I wouldn’t change a thing! :)

 

Is a glamour model’s career very different from a fashion model’s? Is it possible to move from one aspect of modelling to another? (some writers can succeed in fiction and non-fiction but the disciplines and requirements are different…is it like that  in modelling?)

In some ways glamour modelling and fashion modelling are two very different worlds but strangely also very similar. I guess models in all areas need to be strict to fit a certain criteria and physical aspects for their jobs. There is the same pressure, the same work involved in knowing your style, poses (trust me it’s not as easy as it looks) and publicity and experienced gained from working with different clients. The difference is in the final product and the way it is viewed. Two entirely different looks, different markets, different clients… Different worlds!

In a way, this is similar to writers knowing their voice, their stories and their markets. I know what I write and trying my hand at something that doesn’t resonate with me will not sell, or if it does, readers will know I’m “faking it” somehow. Readers are very savvy and get to know a writer’s voice. Voice  is like style, image, pose and that is what connects us.

This has been just a glimpse into the lives of the Bonnies. Please do come back on Wednesday for our next installment.

 

No, this is not a post about how beneficial chocolate is for the writer’s soul. I think everybody knows that, and personally, I tend to indulge on a fairly regular basis. But back in February, one of our readers asked if someone could do a post on the differences between analogy, allegory and metaphor, and I thought starting off with an example from a popular movie would be a good idea.

Rachel’s request stuck in my mind for two reasons. First, we seldom get asked to write about a particular subject so it’s very nice when readers give us ideas, and second, I thought I had a pretty good handle on how metaphors and similes were structured, but I wasn’t all that clear on allegories. With that in mind, I went to the Font of All Knowledge (Google) and did some research.

So this is for you, Rachel—with apologies for the delay—and for all the rest of us who are a little hazy on the similarities and differences between allegory, analogy, metaphor, and simile.

First, let’s begin with some Official Dictionary Definitions:

Analogy (noun): a likeness or a comparison between two things that have some features that are the same and others which are different.

Straightforward. Now we get into the types of analogies:

Simile (noun): a figure of speech that directly compares two unlike objects, often by using the words like or as. (‘Abe grumbles like a bear in the morning’, or ‘Bob is as stubborn as a mule’)

Metaphor (noun): a word or phrase used to compare two unlike objects, ideas, thoughts or feelings to provide a clearer description. In other words, where unlike things have something in common (‘Joe is a diamond in the rough’ or, ‘Life is like a box of chocolates’). So, a simile is an expressed analogy, where a metaphor is an implied one.

Here’s another type of analogy:

‘I am to dancing what Roseanne is to singing and Donald Duck to motivational speeches. I am as graceful as a refrigerator falling down a flight of stairs’ Leonard Pitts, “Curse of Rhythm Impairment” Miami Herald, Sep. 28 2009.

Our last term is also a comparison of ideas but on a larger basis:

Allegory (noun): the rhetorical strategy of extending a metaphor through an entire narrative so that objects, persons and actions in the text are equated with meanings that lie outside the text.

Whew! Sounds a little lofty, but in its simplest form, an allegory is a fictional story where the characters and situations echo a ‘real world’ situation. Movies like The Wizard of Oz, Metropolis, The Seventh Seal, and District 9 have all been quoted as examples of allegorical films, as has one of my favourites, Avatar. “The Pandora woods are the Amazon rain forest. The attempts to get the Na’vi to cooperate carry overtones of the U.S. involvement in Iraq and Afghanistan.” (Owen Gleiberman, review of Avatar. Entertainment Weekly, Dec. 30, 2009)

So, there you have it. Hope that helps, Rachel. And now, feeling my energy drop like a meter in a brown out, it’s time to dip into the box of chocolates again…

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A southwest wind whipped up overnight, but I woke insulated from nature by the sturdy sixty-year-old walls of my home, and my morning routine. While my Kurig prepared a short cup of espresso, I practiced Tai Chi in my kitchen. Rising from the challenge of thirty spine-stretching Dan Yu’s – fifty seems to be the accepted standard, but I’m working my way up – I poured soy milk into my magic electric frother, waited ninety seconds, then poured froth and coffee together.

My latte lacks the artistic touch of the barista’s pretty shades-of-coffee-and-milk leaf pattern. But then the decadent pleasure of my anticipation is also somewhat gimped by the tangle of must-do’s surging in my mind.

… revise, edit, proofread, format, kindle-ize and ePub the rest of my backlist … finish my two WIPs before they become old age pensioners … pack for my upcoming business trip to Toronto … write the next module of the course I’m developing … try to whip my email inbox into manageable proportions.

So I carry my cup into the study and open my curtains on nature. While coffee-flavored dark chocolate sprinkles melting on my tongue, my neighbor’s willow branches whip in the wind, dancing against morning’s grey backdrop.

There’s something magical about storms at the ocean’s edge. The tide lifts 21st Century high-pressure bytes, pokes, tweets, dreams and duties, transforming them into a collage of cosmic flotsam with one lazy surge.

I’m here. Today. One moment, time stopped, the decision fatigue of contemplating a thousand tasks and duties settling into cosmic art – or cosmic trash.

Just one day.

“Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry I could not travel both
and be one traveller, long I stood
and looked down one as far as I could
to where it bent in the undergrowth …
then took the other …”
Robert Frost, published 1916.

The yellow wood from Frost’s The Road Not Taken exists motionless in my mind, a moment out of time, silent contrast to Vancouver Island’s morning storm any the 21st Century gizmo-laden information age. I love both – the silent meditative woods, and the turbulent spin of information.

I speculate that Frost’s 1916 decisions are more linear – absent the multi-tasking, instant everything, 18-headed nature of 2012 … or not.

Just one morning. One moment. One path.

This morning I’m Robert Frost.

1000 roads … two roads diverge.

Take a step into 1916. Pick one.

Vanessa

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       ”Dream no small dreams for they have no power to move the hearts of men.” Goethe 

Oh, the lure of the other side, where the grass is greener, the prose leaner, and the air pure and inspirational.

I don’t write when I travel. I keep a few scribbled notes, but they’re pretty much indecipherable by the time I get home. I’ve always felt my inability to parse sparkling and eternal prose while experiencing new places made me less of a writer. And maybe it does. But when I  travel—which is not nearly enough—I become too enthralled, my senses are overwhelmed by the unfamiliar;  the enticing newness of ancient buildings, untried roads, foreign foliage, and strange exotic foods. Given so much to absorb, the idea of writing slips to the backside of my mind, where it lurks petulantly, spitting out *should-dos* on a semi-regular basis.

While I may push the labor of writing aside, I do dream. I dream about how wonderful it would be to take an extended writing holiday where I could give my all to creativity and creation. A holiday with just me, my laptop, a new Moleskin notebook, colored pens, and a brilliant—no, spectacular!—premise for that dazzling, luminous book, I’ve always planned to write.

I would rent an apartment with no wireless.  I’d go to Italy or France, maybe Spain. Once there, my muse and I would set up shop in ideal digs. There’d be uninterrupted time, sunshine, a sidewalk cafe (every writer needs one of those), a flowered terrace—and lots of strong black coffee. Maybe a cool Pinot Gris to end the writing day.

I would stroll every morning down narrow cobbled paths between ancient stone buildings and drop into the nearest Internet cafe to check my email; this to make sure my family wasn’t starving and that there’d been no North American zombie apocalypse during my extended leave. Then, having put my mind at ease, I’d return to my sun-drenched terrace where the words would flow endlessly. Indeed, they’d tumble onto the page so perfectly and so fast my brain would tremble at their onslaught. Voila! A book in one seamless draft, every comma tucked into place, every word pulsing with energy.  Yes! The writer’s life as it is meant to be.

Tis but a dream, of course, but dreams are what life is made of, and all writers have secret dreams woven in the space between their work and real lives. We’re all about what ifs and if onlys.

I’m telling you my dream so you’ll understand the reason I’ve not yet written that staggeringly brilliant, unmatched-in-the-universe book. To quote my inner child, “It’s not my fault.”   It’s because my romantic dream of sun-saturated, uninterrupted  writing time has never been realized.

I’m still mad at a universe that insists the only way to write a book is to put butt in chair (be it in a closet, at a kitchen table, or local Starbucks), and lay down those words, one at a time, one after the other, all while praying for a pleasing symmetry—and an entertaining yarn. It’s not about heaven-sent words tumbling onto the page; it’s about keeping on, and on, and on—wherever you happen to be. I know this. I truly do. But again to quote that stubborn inner child, “It’s not fair!”

EC Sheedy  (who somehow managed to write some books without endless time or an endless summer, which she considers a small miracle.)

You can find her books here:  http://amzn.to/yC1Ffm

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I live in the Northern Hemisphere. Not on an ice flow but fairly far north, well beyond what you’d call tropical.

So imagine my shock when I looked out my office window in the dead of winter and saw a koala perched on a branch of my gnarled apple tree.

Yes, I’d had my morning coffee and, no, it didn’t contain brandy. I saw a koala. At least until my brain slapped my imagination upside the head and reminded me it wasn’t possible; I was seeing things. Seeing things differently.

At least outside my window. Inside was a different story.

Some months prior to the marsupial sighting, I’d been working on a novel, one of the most challenging books I’ve written. This story required the weaving of two worlds. I had everything in place, or so I thought, but readers weren’t getting it. The protagonist was compelling; the writing and dialogue flowed; the goals, motivations and conflict were all spelled out. Editors and agents had said so. Yet they weren’t buying. Readers seemed fuzzy on the secondary world I’d so carefully woven through the pages. Maybe, someone suggested, you could take a specific pivotal event that happens later in the manuscript and use it as your opening. That, they said, would clear things up.

No. Not possible. While I wasn’t married to the opening I had, I did favor a certain order in the unfolding of events. There was a logic to it. Putting that pivotal event at the front of the book would seriously mess up the pacing and ruin the escalating tension.

When the Martian-I-married pointed out that I was, in fact, the author of this particular novel which meant I had complete control over the unfolding of events, the rising of said tension, etc. etc., I told him to (please) go into the basement and work on his car. Then I stuck the manuscript away for more aging while I finished something else.

As these things work – literally minutes before I saw the koala – I had pulled the manuscript and placed it on my desk. But while I had new perspective on the wildlife in my backyard, I was still seeing what I wanted to see in the WIP.

I spent the next few days revising around that troubling opening and maintaining my unarguable logic of why events needed to unfold the way they did. Curiously, the opening did not rewrite itself; the problem still remained. Funny how that works.

On Thursday I decided what the hell. I copied and pasted the pivotal event from the middle of the manuscript to the beginning. I wrote, and rewrote. I fiddled with the middle, writing and rewriting that too.

It did not work. It wrecked the flow in the middle; it raised too many questions at the beginning.

Feeling both smug and discouraged, I went to sign off for the day. And that’s when I saw it. Another koala. Only this one wasn’t in the apple tree, it was on the screen in front of me. I saw, quite suddenly and from a completely different perspective, what that reader had been going on about. I saw beyond the specific event of the pivotal scene to the elements she was after – the danger, the conflict, the setting. And – praise the writing Gods – I saw how to incorporate those elements into a new opening scene.

I saw differently. Obviously seeing things differently is a skill I need to feed. I just hope that koala sticks around.

When my novella, BodyWork was in the launch anthology, The Hard Stuff,for Kensington’s Aphrodisia, I had a significant birthday right when the book hit the shelves. To celebrate my birthday, my husband took me to an island paradise where, for the first time ever, I saw my book on a bookstore shelf. 

My novella Bodywork


I got photos in the store with a clerk! I took pictures of the shelf…I sighed and whooped and my heart burst with pride. Meanwhile the cover hit the news: a program on a news network called On the Money, local TV Stations in Buffalo and Boston and even Geraldo Rivera used the cover on a segment about the money to be made writing romance novels. Not your “mother’s romance novels” these newspeople pointed out, but erotic romance novels. (ooh, nudge nudge, wink wink)
I woke on my birthday morning and went to the hotel’s internet and business center to check my email. Back then, tablets didn’t exist and I’d left my laptop at home for vacation.
There, in my newly-minted website email, was a message from one “Bonnie Edwards” furious that I’d ruined her name! Not satisfied with one hateful message, she immediately fired another demanding to know: “are you even educated?”
I don’t have to look these emails up to refresh myself because they’re burned into my memory banks forever.
I was, to say the least, taken aback. In these joyous heady days, here was a lady I’d deeply offended by writing books. Books that I loved writing.
Trying to come up with a response that sounded reasonable was impossible. I tried! Several times I attempted to frame a message that would convey . . . something nice, or friendly or kind.
Then I thought, to hell with it! I’m here in Hawaii on my something-mumble birthday, with my wonderful husband, seeing my book on the shelves for the first time, and why ruin a perfectly good time?
Nothing I said to this lady would change her mind about the “filth” I’d written. Nothing I said would make her feel better. I certainly wasn’t going to quit writing.
I have never heard from that particular Bonnie Edwards again, nor do I wish to, because I’m still not going to quit writing.
But what has happened is quite marvelous. I have discovered a couple of talented women named Bonnie Edwards who are in professions that require a level of “public awareness”. One is a lovely young woman who models swimsuits. We follow each other on Twitter and occasionally, I get handsome young men following me. They must be looking for the model, because they unfollow me just as soon as they enlarge my picture! It’s fun in a weird way for both of us.
Another Bonnie Edwards is a blues singer with a band called “Bonnie Edwards and The Practical Cats”. (I cannot sing a note so her career’s safe from invasion.) After knowing about her for months and wondering how to get in touch, she friended me on Facebook just yesterday. Yay! I’ve wanted to make a connection and now we have. (Thanks, Bonnie!)
Next month on this blog I plan to have interviews from both: on modeling, on her singing career, and on how we all manage this “Public Awareness”. If you know of another Bonnie Edwards in a similar “public” career, please be in touch, we’d all love to say hello!